Round 2

Long time no post...yeah I know, been busy. I'm sure you all want to hear about it, right? Meh, fine. Only because I am bored.

Honestly, throughout most of my life, I never actually HAD to deal with a financial situation as close to being in debt as I was recently. Not gonna lie, I was a little scured. That's right, I said scured not scared. What are you gonna do about it? Nonetheless, I was able to slowly, but surely, recover from the threat that was me going broke. I am slowly recuperating and beginning to create a safe balance yet again. *very sarcastic* Hurrah for me.

Its not that I'm disappointed that I saved my life financially, in fact I'm pretty happy about that. One less thing to worry about. Its just that yesterday I finally got the courage to ask my mystery girl out yet again. I know its been awhile since my last attempt, but hey...a maybe like that took a lot out of my self esteem. Either way, from what you can tell, I'm sure, I was rejected, but not because she doesn't want to go out with me, but more because my timing was bad yet again. I mean, what the fuck are the odds that Friday, the day I ask her out for, was her brothers birthday. I mean, fricken a. Oh well, didn't actually use the word date this time, more of "would you like to go to *insert random function here* with me on Friday", to which she replied that it was her brothers birthday. *sigh* Oh well. Something did happen this week that I would like to share in light of me asking her out.

A couple days before asking my mystery girl out again, I had what some might call an epiphany. When asking myself why I wasn't asking her out, I came across a quote that put it all into perspective for me. "Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game". Wow...I was letting the fear of rejection prevent me from asking her out constantly until she said yes....or get away from me. Subconsciously of course, because my heart wanted me to ask her out...so yeah. Either way though, I should have seen this coming. I had the same basic problem with football awhile back as well. I always let the fear of the next day watching film and watching myself mess up and getting yelled at prevent me from playing the game to my fullest. After realizing that I went out the next game and literally took a guy in each arm and drove them back like 15 yards or so. Basically dominating that entire team up and down the field. Had at least 20 or so pancake blocks. Was a great game. Hopefully upon this realization with my mystery girl, I will be able to give round 3 a shot and get a yes.

You know what they say...third time's the charm.